Sunday, July 8, 2012

Home


Last weekend we were in Albany for a wedding - our good friends Andrew and Katie got married. They had it at the German American Club, so it was somewhat reminiscent of our own wedding almost 5 years ago now (holy crap!). The last song of the night was the one in this video. I first heard it on a CD that was made as a wedding favor when Charlie's friend Steve got married a few years ago. I love it. Such an upbeat and catchy song. I feel like most love songs are slow and sappy. But I think that love is a very upbeat and happy feeling. It does not make me want to walk around slow. It makes me want to dance and stomp my feet, and that's what this song makes me want to do:)

It also rings true to me as I try to find a job. I get so sad sometimes thinking about leaving Columbus. It has been the place where I really grew up and became an adult. I've lived here since I left college - seven years already. I had no idea what to expect when I came here for medical school, but I have grown to love it so much. And it has become a part of me and part of me does not want to leave.

But life is not meant to be lived that way. Amazing things can happen in life if you only let them. Too many people are held back but what they think they can and can't do for no good reason at all. I have not lived my life that way up until now and I don't plan on starting now. I could probably find a job in Columbus, but I can find a much better one someplace else. And it is time for us to move on. Time for us to put down roots somewhere, but I know in my heart that place is not here in this house that we recovered from foreclosure and turned into a home, and not in this city that helped me to grow up and learn to love so many different things. The list of things I will miss is long. But it is important to remember that home is not a place. You leave your house and you leave your city, but you take your home with you. And for now, home is wherever Charlie and I settle. We'll see where that ends up being:)

We don't have any big plans for the coming weeks, so we'll just see what life brings us:) Hope you are all enjoying your summer, too!


1 comment:

Tammie said...

I loved the song. It is hard to believe you have been in Columbus for seven years! That is half as long as we lived in Buffalo...I know the sadness that you speak of.... amazing things will be happening for you, of that I am certain. My sister once said that "home is where you hang your hat". I think, as you do that we carry our "home" within us, and it is also, for many years, more than I can count almost, been wherever Dad is.