I have been getting so frustrated by everything. Which frustrates me more. The weather is finally getting nice, and I have been looking forward to doing some landscaping since last summer, and now that the time is here, I feel as though I do not have any time whatsoever to do it. Which irritates me to no end. I have my exam this Saturday, but then after that I need to start working on my research paper which is due at the end of May. And every single weekend from here until June is occupied. Which I would not change for the world. My in-laws and my parents will be in town - I haven't seen them since the holidays and I am very excited for them to come and visit with us, I have graduation parties, weekend call, Charlie needs to stay in Florida for a weekend and then we're going to Peru which will take up two more weekends. None of that would I change - my family is always more important than a stupid garden anyways. However, it was all making me feel overwhelmed, which was making me mad, which in the end is all ridiculous anyways.
I was talking to Charlie on the phone last night about it, when I realized - this does not have to be stressful. It should not be stressful. I need to set boundaries and then keep them. I want to do some landscaping. Now, it does not need to be the Taj Mahal of landscaping, and, quite honestly, if I want to do a perennial garden like I was saying, then probably it is better to slowly plant things throughout the spring and early summer so that in the end I will have something that will be blooming from spring until fall. I just need to make time to do it. Why do I need to spend an entire day? When I get home early I can work on the walls. It is light out until 8pm or later now. The walls will get built, the compost will get delivered, it will be OK. And it defeats the purpose if it makes me crazy and frustrated.
So, in that spirit I got on American Meadows last night and, lo' and behold, they had some of the bulbs and stuff that I wanted to plant this spring on sale! Yay! Now they said that the things I bought are bulbs and roots to be planted in the spring. We'll see if they bloom this year or not, but I'm hoping they at least take and we will have something pretty next year. I was unsure about buying plants online. I thought those might be better to get from a local nursery.
I wonder if I could ever have a garden without the orange daylilies. I don't think so. They are a huge part of what I remember from my childhood, and having them in my garden makes me incredibly happy.
"Spring shows what God can do with a drab and dirty world."